Thursday, July 6, 2006

What IS That Frog in yer Throat???


Yeah, when I mentioned being sick in the last one, well, I think I really am. I think that 'glotis' in my throat when I lay down is in fact congestion. I now have the capacity to sleep, or wake up and sleep, into the motley afternoon.

This screws up the concept of 'niners' in the a.m. and I don't know if I should just take them when I finally get up, seeing as how that's where the blood pressure, cholesterol and thyroid meds are. I'm still thinking about it.

I've eaten. Yet I continue to shake. I had a cig. then put the patch on. Then couldn't take it anymore, and like a person putting their gum on a dish, I took it off and put it on the original silver thing it comes on and went out and had my second cig of the day.

Thank you, mysti, for your words of encouragement. I feel like I let you down a bit, but at the same time I know its all a work in progress and that someday I will get there. Still I try. And as we all know that is everything.

2 comments:

mysti said...

Puts my finger over my mouth, whispers shhhhhhhhh while looking around from side to side to see who is listening. Tart you can not let me down. Quitting smoking is hard. Very. The fact that you even tried is a huge deal. I understand how hard it is, and am still very proud of you! You will quit when the time is right for you.

Raine said...

ummmm being bi-polar I dont know if they will let you have it or not. But have you considered Zyban? Its like a very small does of Wellbutrin and you take if for 10 days BEFORE you quit smoking. You could ask your doctor about it. I think you're awesome for even trying. Might I suggest that you do one thing at a time instead of trying to do them all at once? each thing you are planning to do is huge all by itself. And anything you accomplish is major hun LOLOL I havent been able to do ANY of them!!!!