Saturday, May 3, 2008

I figured out one reason I like People magazine so much...

Eva Longoria Parker without makeup, probably printed in People magazine at one point, and probably something I snagged as an MSN pic (I'm guessing).

...I like still pictures and still words. I like words on a page or even a (computer) screen. But I'm not fond of video, YouTube even, or rolling pictures off MSN. I avoid the videos off of MSN!

TV I can stand, for short spurts, usually at night when I'm going to sleep. I like movies for some reason. Maybe because it's a set plot or it has parameters or boundaries and I usually have some idea what it's about, I guess. But I don't always know what's going to happen in video, and it puts me on edge.

Say it with me, "I'm not a baby, I'm NOT!" It's one of those weird things that I'm willing to let out at this time.

One of the most popular posts that people come to on my blog is the Connie Talbert YouTubes when she sings!

I don't recall what caused me to post that.

Anyway, are there any bipolars out there that like to slowly digest their news, and much of their entertainment?
Especially to the point where it's noticeable and they notice themselves avoiding video's in emails or online? I can stare at a People magazine page, flip the page, and be totally engrossed in it from cover to cover. I invite other bipolar's to delve into the reasons why, because I surely don't know!

Maybe because it stays still and I can be engrossed in what I want to see (and flip past what I don't?).

MAYbe its the control factor, as my therapist suggested today.
I am not bombarded with stuff instead I choose what to be bombarded by, just like when I lay still on my bed in my room, shunning all life on this planet, except for a little HGTV (Home something TV), after eating a Cloapin or two (bad, don't do that!). In other words, control the world - keep that bitch a-WAY.

Maybe because it reminds me of years of having a hard copy, a written page to hold, or even computer screen that stayed still for me to look, think, and edit?

That and E! news on television makes me just stare. Or 'ridiculously' wholesome shows like 'Clean House' or stuff on the Home Network (they are predictable!) What is the fascination?

I don't care what the answer is because there's no other answer for me.


MYSTI said...

You made mention of this the other day. I myself have problems with a few things that i chalked up to fibro. I cant have tv on, and talk on the phone. It totally upsets me. Or when trying to watch tv and having someone talking in the back ground. I become nervous, and cant focus.

'Tart said...

I think it's the control factor. Our illnesses are not necessarily in our control and we'd like as much as we can, please.:)

We push ourselves so hard to be normal, or just to get everyday things done that having too much stimulus really feels harmful.

Thank you for your comments, Mysti.:)