Tuesday, November 18, 2008

It's been a week (okay, 2)...

...of up and downs for me. I think I have experienced many of my symptoms from anxiety to lack of sleep (5 a.m. to bed finally this morning to be for me - ay yi yi!!), to being down and feeling worthless, for days lolling in bed wishing the day was over, to feeling good and sometimes, very rarely SomeTimes, on top of the world. All in the life of bipolar, eh!

I will be getting off of Seroquel in about two weeks, a pill that was meant to knock me out at night, be an anti-psychotic - and a real pill in the battle of the midnight munchies. I really think that it has a lot to do with the overwhelming cravings I get to EAT something 1/2 hour after I take my evening meds. Not to mention, I think I eat to stay awake, if that makes sense. It's like the body says NO! Don't sleep, eat for energy, Wake Up Girl! Which is so counter-productive to most of my goals. I'm working hard to quell the monster at night (the food cravings) and I'm willing to see what life is like without this drug. Wish me luck!:)

Well, we made some money last (2 Sat.'s ago) Saturday, just a couple hundred, which is amazing perhaps considering the economy. We must have 'waylaid' every customer that came into the one store that we were allowed to hand out flyers at and there was nice camaraderie amongst the 4-5 women from the center that showed up. I stayed for the whole time, 9 a.m. to 4 p.m., as my intrepid boss was so exhausted and tired from days of working on grants and handling some chaos at the Center, that she really wanted to go home, and that was okay.

The consensus was that we did well, even though our boss was a little down because the overhead for paying some people to be there considerably lessened profit. Oh well, live and learn. It takes an awful lot of effort to make a little money for 'free.'

We each bought some things from the store, which added to the fundraiser, as well as each had the opportunity to pick out some things for recreation, prizes for games, etc., that the Center paid for. We got lots of fun stuff for a small price!


I saw 10 little flakes of snow come down today. First snow of the season, but it didn't really happen. Still it was magical and pretty and made me start singing "Purty Little Snowflake" by Jim Reeves:

Hey, hey, hey Snowflake,

My purty Little Snowflake,

A change in the weather,

Has made it better for me....

Hey, hey, hey...

:) Tart


Tracy said...

I hope getting off that one med Tart will help stop those cravings! I hate when medicine makes one crave food, and makes a person gain weight!

I love the snow! laughing, although i do hope it stays away for my dads sake. But then snow snow snow after he leaves yayyyy. lol My father grew up in Iowa where they get a ton of snow, he moved to california to escape it! I however being a california girl still get so enthralled each time i see it snowing! I just love it.

HOpe you have a wonderful day! Hugsssss

'Tart said...

Thank you for the wishes about the med, Tracy. I am having good hopes about it, too!!

I love snow too, if I don't have to drive in it and I don't have to worry about my loved ones in it. I think my Mom moved to warmer weather so she wouldn't have to worry about it, partly anyway. But isn't beautiful when it comes down? There is such a sense of excitement, like a little kid, within me.:)

I hope you have a wonderful day, as well, Friend. Talk to you soon!