Friday, September 4, 2009

Hanging on by a thread.

I, the Tart, am not doing well. I have been holding on for three weeks now, trying so hard not to go into the hospital. I don't think it is working. My p-doc made a medicine change two weeks ago and it is not enough to stem the tide, to to stop it, to fix it. I keep calling, hoping that he will call me back. He does not. I keep seeing my therapist twice a week, I don't know how we will pay for it, but I have not missed an appointment. I have bawled. I have screamed. I don't trust that this doctor can do squat for me, and there are not many alternatives. So I may go into the hospital. I don't know if I am going, I don't know when I'll get out. Now you know why it's been so hard for me to post, and that I am truly and utterly just hanging on.

6 comments:

Tracy said...

((((Tart)))) I am so sorry you are having to deal with all this pain. Hugging you tight. Know you are in my thoughts and prayers my friend.

Raine said...

(((((((Tart))))))) if you have to go, then I hope they are able to do something good for you and I want you know we will be here when you get out.

Mike Golch said...

{{{{TART}}}} Sorry to hear that you are dealing with so much stuff.we are here for you with prayers.I'm posting a prayer request for you on my site as well.Hang in there kiddo!!Big Time Hugs!!

crazybeanrider said...

Sometimes as much as we hate doing it, the hospital is the best place to get back on track. Get the meds straight. Get outside influences out of the way. All the stress, and the hospital staff can monitor the med changes. I know it sucks, but sometimes it is better in the long run.
I hope you feel better soon-Boo

Wanda's Wings said...

(((((Tart))))) Maybe the hospital would help. I know I hate it when I have to go, but sometimes it is what is needed to stabilize the medication. You are really going through a rough time, so do what ever is needed to help. Sending hugs your way.

'Tart said...

Thank you all - so much!
:)