Sunday, August 30, 2009

Don't throw daggers and knives at yourself.

This is my new motto, repeated internally inside my head. I use it to 'stop-thought,' so to speak, bad thoughts sometimes if I can't be too busy to drown them out otherwise.

I have personally found that I am the one saying the meanest things to myself.

I don't think that anyone would have the canastas to say to me some of terrible things I have thought of myself.

I can sit perfectly still and tear myself apart without ever saying a word out loud. I know it's part of the illness. It says so in my informative brochure from NAMI (also titled, "Bipolar: you're crazy to visit and you definitely don't want to live there." Oh, those nutty brochures from NAMI)

This is not an MSN board, with every crackpot on earth being mean to each other for the fun of it, this is a blog by a person who has bipolar who would like to enrich the world in some way.

So I just want to leave you with that thought for the moment (don't worry, I'm not going anywhere. Endure to the end, remember?) I know I can be my own worst enemy. I invite those of us who especially need to be reminded, that for emotional safety to leave the cutlery in the woodblock.
:)

5 comments:

Mike Golch said...

good posting,I hope that you had a grand weekend! Hugs.

Mike Golch said...

Oh I forgot I think that you will get a kick out of my latests posting!

Denise said...

Philippians 4:8 tells us to think about whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of
good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.

Let's change our minds and think on the good things of God and think on the wonderful grace that saved us and keeps us saved...Love yourself girl friend because HE loved you enough to send HIS only son, and that only Son died for you, and HE would have died if you had been the only one..... You are priceless...

Jena said...

Thank you, I needed that. Perfect timing.

Wanda's Wings said...

Great post.