Trying to feel better.

Today is the first 'have-to' day that I have experienced with 'having to go to' my job. The job being the baking thing.

I have not said anything on blog, but we got a new person added to our group who Extremely Loud & Obnoxious and it is all I can do to stay patient, to keep my mouth shut and continue to think at all while this person plays for all attention, is truly so loud that they take my thoughts away.

The supervisor is aware and will be talking to the offensive one today, but I don't think it will do any good. The super and her Mom are too nice, but maybe it will change. I would be Very Glad if it would.

But I dread going.

I woke up late today with an immediate low to begin with, now improving a little. Had my medicine and new Proactive vitamins (I don't have serious skin problems, I just want to take care of my skin), then ate a little somethin' somethin' - these things helped some.

My Mom has been here since March, when I had my Lithium toxicity, and now she is returning to her home base, many states away, on Thursday. That affects my mood because knowing that she is around has been quite helpful to me.

I admit I feel some 'lonelies' coming down. And September just has never been a good month for me. It will take some real pushing ahead to work through it.

But trying, TRYING so hard to be on more positive notes, I have been reading "The Creative Memories Way" by Cheryl Lightle & Rhonda Anderson (co-founders of Creative Memories) with Shari MacDonald, and really enjoyed rekindling my love of scrapbooking.

Actually, friends of my mother's came by and I showed them my wedding book that I have done myself, with help of the Creative Memories lady that used to be in the business, and discovered that I really want to get more of it done because it was fun for all of us to look at it.

I also have tons of pictures from my Dad's that I wanted to do something special with. These are pictures of a vast family that I didn't until recently really realize that I have. I don't know who all of them are, but luckily I do have some family that would know and would be glad to tell me about them.

Due to the beauty of the internet, I could post these pics privately and see what the family member says, even though she lives on the other coast! Positive, positive!

I also have a Baby record cross-stitch that I am working on for my husband's cousin's baby, due in October, and I'm hoping to get it done by Christmas. There is much to do on it, even though it says it's 'easy' and I will eventually be posting how I'm doing with it on the 'Good Stuff' blog.

I try. I try to feel better even when my guts are unhappy, from my chemical imbalance to real life activities (the 'job'). I want to be lifted up when the post is all through. Here I tried, even though I was ready to give up before breakfast.

There's a tremor in the Force, I feel, and some of my blog friends (and I notice some of my real life friends) are going through hard times. I feel for you, and pray for you and wish you better days. Please hang on if that is how you are feeling. You matter.

Sincerely, Tart

Please Pray for Stacy.

I don't often do 'prayer requests' but my good friend Tracy's twin, Stacy, is apparently having side pains and has gone to the hospital because of them.

These two people are wonderful and good friends of mine and I would be amiss if I didn't ask or express that I am praying for her. Now this immediately makes me feel guilty for not putting the 'prayer requests' out for others, especially those who go into the mental health facility, God bless you all, and I do care about your situation. Those are ongoing prayers.

It has come to my attention today that Stacy is in some kind of crisis, and I want to lend my support and prayers, and had to say so on blog.

I hope you feel better soon, Stacy. Sending BIG (((HUGS))) to you, and I hope everything gets figured out and is okay!!
Love,
Tart

Hyper

It's 5:10 a.m. and I'm up. Haven't gone to bed, or at least slept at all. I went to bed at 2 or 3 a.m. last night.

I have just spent what seems like hours updating the sideboards on both Jungletart's and Jungletart's Good Stuff blogs. Just for fun. Putting new pics in, moving things around.

I didn't turn my computer on until 10 p.m. this evening. Guess I'm making up for lost time.

Wish I could sleep. Took a Lunesta and everything. No good.

The 'I Love Your Blog' Award

I received this award first from Mike & Tracy's blogrolls, and whom I want to thank greatly! and I want to give it to: Jena, Raine's Aftermath, and Stacy. I love your blogs.

My picture button is not working. Please grab your award from my sidebar, thanks. Oh, and feel free to give it to those you find worthy.:)
:) Tart

My Blue Beach Shoes & Ocean Sounds:)

I'm baaaack!!

I went to the beach last weekend and had a wonderful time!

I had some time to walk along the beach, sit at the beach, shop around the beach, eat at wonderful places, chill at a very nice hotel and get into a saltwater pool, no less, and in general Had a Blast!!:):)

Please enjoy the sounds of peace and calm from last week.

Yours,

Tart

There's no shame in shaking

In fact to have the Abilify shake, the Lithium shake, the whatever-yer-on shake, in public no less, is Not a sign of weakness.

No, in fact, for every numnut (I like it spelled that way, thank you) that you feel like looks at you funny, you are empowering someone out there to be themselves.

What is it about our society that is so hung up on appearances anyway?

You've got to learn to love and be kind to yourself and you will attract kindness in your life.

Ignore the rest. Easier said than done, for me, but I know it's true.

I know because although my Atenenol has nearly obliterated my shake, I think about people I know that still do, and some pretty empowering people too.

Now for some of you the idea of having shaking hands or being embarassed of it doesn't even enter your mind. Well, nevermind for you. But for those of you that have it, you are not alone, and you don't have to feel bad.:)

A wonderful person I look up to that started a great program around here for the mentally ill - no no one you've heard of from me before - has got the shakes big time.

And I respect her so much that I thought of how empowering it is for me that she shakes to the dickens and doesn't worry about what anyone thinks of it, and does great, organizing, empathetic things for others and it just doesn't matter.

It's not a sign of weakness, rather one of empowerment.:)

Going on a weekend vacation!

I am preparing to leave for my vacation which officially starts tomorrow. My husband will come home tonight and try to get all his stuff together, but I imagine he'll really try tomorrow after we get up in the morning.

I am excited, like a kid, about my birthday.:)

My husband's Mom, yes, my MIL, is planning to cook a steak and crableg dinner and get me a cake, since we'll be there for dinner. Isn't that nice?! Then, I guess on Friday, we (Husband, inlaws including BIL) will travel to the beach. I'm not one for crowds, and it is Labor Day weekend, but somehow I think it will be alright and fun!:)

I am looking forward to being poolside and in the pool. I told you all about the horrible bug bite that I got on my leg a few weeks ago. That has nearly healed up with a ton of antibiotics that I'm still taking. The PT (physical therapy) people told me to keep it out of the sun, as it may scar! Wow!

Well, Husband got bit too! On the tummy, where his pant band makes it impossible for him to let the gross infected bite breathe, as he must keep it wrapped up. He went back to the Doc today. More antibiotics for him and No swimming!

I feel pretty sure we got these bug bites outside. It's a weird coincidence that we both got bit, both got infected and had to have mega doses of antibiotics, according to the Doc.

So anyway, I will be gone for the weekend, and I wish everyone in blogger land a safe, blessed and wonderful Holiday weekend.:)